A few weeks ago my husband took me out to get a new pair of long pants as the one pair I own have holes that I've patched (on the inner thigh, a plague only big women know). We went to two stores, the first being Target where I almost gave up instantly upon seeing the vast amounts of incredibly cute winter clothes that I would NOT be wearing this year. I meandered my way over to the "women's" section (the change of name from "plus size" does not make me feel better) and found nothing...surprising. I then stooped even lower and looked through the maternity section. Materntity pants often have that nifty front panel that supports the belly and since my stomach roll hangs so low, my pants have to be pulled up past my belly button I thought maternity pants would work perfectly....unfortunately the Target maternity section was a bust as well. I walked out of Target, tears glistening in my eyes as I ran my hands along the fur vests and lace dresses hanging in the "skinny people section". I the. Told my husband I wanted to go home...that this was a sign I wasn't deserving of new clothes and should just loose weight instead. He convinced me to go to one more store after I threw a small fit and shed a few tears. We then went to Khols and I grudgingly searched the 10x20 section of plus size clothes. I consider that trip a tiny success as I found pants that fit and went up high enough and fit alright...BUT....they were too small at the bottom, thus making me look as though I was attempting to wear a pair of skinny legged pants. Something I am not fond of on overweight persons. I left feeling defeated and pointed out to my husband the vast quantity of clothes they make for people who do not surpass size 12-14...I did not buy pants that night and continue to wear the patched pants washing them every other day...they surely won't last much longer.
On to another new frustrating topic for me...hair, make-up, hair products, skin products and fancy stanch girl stuff...I LOVE this stuff but when it comes to all of it I am completely lost in every single possible way...I can't do make up, I can't do anything but straighten my hair and I'm lost every time I step into the beauty section of a store...I can out together a really cute outfit on someone else (not myself for obvious "the clothes don't fit" reasons) and I can do someone else's hair on a mediocre level (getting better) this is all stuff I desperately want. I want to be that really cute girl with the perfect hair, make-up and clothes that walks down the street but that's not even in the realm of possibilities for me. They don't make plus size clothes to fit plus size people...they usually make them only wider instead of wider and longer. Plus plus size clothes are usually ugly and granny like. I'm only 22 for petes sake! Hair and makeup I could figure out. But I am too self conscious right now to wear much other then mascara and do more then throw my hair into a pony tail. All in due time I suppose. I will attach a photo of an outfit I found online that I absolutely am green with envy over haha. Logging out!
Ms.Jess
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