FAT! FAT! FAT!

 If there was one word that I had to use to describe myself FAT would be it. I have been fat my whole life but never like this. All through high school I weighed around 200-230 and when I was a freshman my mother put me in weight watchers and I lost 30 pounds...that however did not last. Things really went downhill when I met my now husband. I went from eating home cooked, healthy, well rounded meals to fast food more then I care to admit. His bad habits became my bad habits and in the 4 years that we have been together I have gained a whopping 70 pounds (possibly more) Now you do the math yourself as I am not quite ready to type that horrific number down and make it real. I truly believe that I was born in the wrong body! I love fashion and make up and hair but because of my weight I have never had the confidence to wear what I like or even put on more then mascara...I feel as though I have cheated myself out of so much in my life and it is time that I put my foot down...for the millionth time.  I in the last 2 years have tried loosing weight a few times and I loose 12 pounds and then plateau which leads me to give up waaaayyy too fast...I started October 26, 2014 and have so far lost 11.3 pounds and have plateaued for a few days but this time I am NOT letting it get me down. I am writing down everything that I shove down my throat and the calories that go with each bite, no matter if I am ashamed of what I ate...This is it I am done being FAT! I WILL wear those cute clothes I WILL wear heels I WILL wear makeup I WILL get my hair done I WILL make heads turn when I walk down the street... I am DONE being morbidly obese! Logging out!

Ms.Jess