Feeling Upset

So Friday I went to Value Village and found a pullover sweatshirt that actually semi fit (I've lost quite a bit of weight but not enough to have my clothing size change). Well the sweatshirt fit but not great, per usual, plus size clothing is plenty wide but not long enough at all...but it's yellow and not black and old with bleach spots like my old one. I am thinking about adding a bit of fabric to the bottom of it to make it longer. But anyway, I went back to Value Village today to try to find a zipup one also...well I realized that Friday put a false sense of something in my head. I thought that all the weight I lost had made a huge difference in my size, and I could find some more clothes today. Well I didn't...not at all. I left feeling broken down and depressed like I usually do after clothing shopping trips. I'm not sure where to go from here. And how I could have thought anything had really changed yet but I did. And when I looked into the disgusting full length mirror in the changing room I realized just how fat and gross I really do still look. I am discouraged. I really REALLY want to be about 200 pounds when summer hits. I don't think I will be but I want to be as close as possible. Well I've got to get to bed, I've had a super lazy weekend and I need to get my rest to kick it back into high gear tomorrow. 

Ms.Jess