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I'm not sure if anyone is checking back here anymore but I thought while I had a minute I would post something, anything to let you know I am still alive. Things have been rough. I fell completely off the wagon for about a month and a little less then a month ago I started back up and lost the few pounds I had gained back. I am at a stalemate right now and am feeling particularly hopeless about the future. 

-is it always going to be this hard?

-will I be fighting this hard forever?

-will it ever get easier?

I don't know what to do. On one hand I need this lifestyle change but on the other I don't know how successful I am going to be if it is this hard for the rest of my life. I just wish I could have a do over and start my life out differently. Signing out. 

Ms.Jess