Wishful Wednesday!

Only an hour and a half late! Haha. Ok well I've been super busy between locking myself in my closet due to a murder happening 5 blocks from my house to falling off the wagon hard and kids being on spring break. I just now have the time (or more honestly, I just remembered hehe) I struggled hard for a few days there, I ate over my calories and didn't exercise. Fortunately it was only three days and I kicked my butt into gear and didn't do too much damage. My last weigh in had me .3 below where I was before my binge of sorts. I've gone back up as of today but I think it's because (if any men are reading this sorry!) I'm 'on my period' I say it with those quotes because I don't actually bleed...sorry I know so gross...but I spot and get crampy and bloated like the rest of us. I'm hoping that's all it is as today (yesterday now) was April 1st and was the day I was supposed to hit 250Lbs. I'm kicking myself in the ass right now because I would have had it had I not messed it all up. Oh well we can't all be perfect, I have to be realistic and know I'm going to have bad days or even a few in a row but I can't let them define me. 

Here soon I want to post my before photo with my after (after I get to 250). I actually lost my original before photo where I was 298-300 pounds and had to take a new one after I'd lost like 40 pounds 😔. I was very sad because I really wanted to compare them! I'm hoping it pops up on the computer somewhere some day but I searched for about 5 hours on the day I realized it was gone. But anyway...my wishful Wednesday outfit is actually just a dress, and it's a dress I own! I've started buying clothes that I want to wear...ok well sort of. I'd gone to value village to find a sweatshirt and was perusing through the dress section and found two adorable summer dresses. They are definitely not my size but I had to have them so I bought them. I paid maybe 20 bucks total and they seem brand new. One is actually a Vera Wang (no I'm no super into fashion I just know the name) and I paid $10.00!!!! Ten bucks for a Vers Wang! Score lol. But anyway. The actual dress that I'm posting today is one I found a few days ago at goodwill (see a pattern? Lol). I was about to check out when I saw a cute shirt hanging up in the section they advertise like higher fashion stuff. It looks more like a new store, with all nice clothes you'd want to wear instead of rows and rows of mumu's and faded tee shirts. I sifted through one rack of about 5 items when in the back I saw it. This dress. So cute. I knew I shouldn't but I had to. My mind was made up the second I saw it. That baby was coming with me. I'm sorry it's not a great picture. I took it this evening when everyone was asleep so I couldn't get a solid white background. Well anyway. The dress!

Ugh it looks even worse on here. Maybe I'll take a new one tomorrow and edit it in...oh wait. I mean later today haha! Anyway. I paid 15 bucks and I swear the thing is brand new. The black spots are a mesh and the back is open except for the zipper. It's kind of like a spandex material and just makes my heart melt! I know, I know. Wtf Jess haha. But anyway. It's a size medium and I know it's going to be many, many, many, many moons before I can don this dress but I will! That I can promise you I will wear this dress! (And then I'll post a photo for you guys lol)

Ok guys. I've got to actually get some sleep. 

Ms.Jess