(Late) Wishful Wednesday

Ok it's a little late I know but here it is! I love this dress! I might make it a little longer but even if no it's super cute!

Ms.Jess

Sorry Guys!

EI know I've missed a few days but I've been so busy! Today is my birthday woo hoo! (Not). I don't have any plans for today except taking my new dog out and about (yes we got a new dog *squee!!)

Anyway I'll post a photo of him in a minute. He is an Alaskan Malamute and he weighs 110 pounds. He is beautiful, friendly and just so wonderful. Completely opposite of our last dog, who thankfully has a better home where they are equipped to deal with broken animals. Anyway, his name is Jack and here he is. 

He's so beautiful! And big! Haha. He woke me up this morning by laying on me! Ugh he was heavy but I loved it! Ok gonna go find a photo for my late wishful Wednesday!

Ms.Jess

I Messed Up

I really messed up guys. I just kept eating. I feel like crap I don't know what to do except kick it into high gear tomorrow and work out all day. I am praying to the gods I didn't gain any weight. I can't afford a set back. I just can't. I think I got discouraged because my before and after pictures looked the same to me and that made me sad. I'm so upset that I lost my originals! I know I keep saying that but I'm still really upset about it. Just ugh. Good night. 

Ms.Jess

Before and Afters

Ok, so I would have had these for you last night but I was so tired! Ok so I am kind of dissapoibted because I don't see much of any difference. I am still upset that I lost my original photos at 300 pounds because I'm sure those would have been so much different. But I have to work with what I have. There is a only a 13 pound difference versus 50 if I still had my old photos so it is kind of disappointing. But anyway without further ado here they are. 

Ms.Jess

I Did It!!

I did it everyone! I lost 50 pounds! I was 249.4 this morning! I am so proud of myself. I am hoping to take some 'after' photos tomorrow as well as retake my measurements 😊 I am beyond thrilled right now. I still don't notice too much of a change yet but I'm sure it's about to go down! Pretty soon I'm hoping to HAVE to buy new clothes 😜 anyway, it's super late and I'm tired, Easter is tomorrow and I have three extra guests in my tiny house until Tuesday. Got to catch some Zzz's. Goodnight!

Ms.Jess

Goodnight!

Just wanted to say real quick I updated that photo! Ok good night!

Ms.Jess

Wishful Wednesday!

Only an hour and a half late! Haha. Ok well I've been super busy between locking myself in my closet due to a murder happening 5 blocks from my house to falling off the wagon hard and kids being on spring break. I just now have the time (or more honestly, I just remembered hehe) I struggled hard for a few days there, I ate over my calories and didn't exercise. Fortunately it was only three days and I kicked my butt into gear and didn't do too much damage. My last weigh in had me .3 below where I was before my binge of sorts. I've gone back up as of today but I think it's because (if any men are reading this sorry!) I'm 'on my period' I say it with those quotes because I don't actually bleed...sorry I know so gross...but I spot and get crampy and bloated like the rest of us. I'm hoping that's all it is as today (yesterday now) was April 1st and was the day I was supposed to hit 250Lbs. I'm kicking myself in the ass right now because I would have had it had I not messed it all up. Oh well we can't all be perfect, I have to be realistic and know I'm going to have bad days or even a few in a row but I can't let them define me. 

Here soon I want to post my before photo with my after (after I get to 250). I actually lost my original before photo where I was 298-300 pounds and had to take a new one after I'd lost like 40 pounds 😔. I was very sad because I really wanted to compare them! I'm hoping it pops up on the computer somewhere some day but I searched for about 5 hours on the day I realized it was gone. But anyway...my wishful Wednesday outfit is actually just a dress, and it's a dress I own! I've started buying clothes that I want to wear...ok well sort of. I'd gone to value village to find a sweatshirt and was perusing through the dress section and found two adorable summer dresses. They are definitely not my size but I had to have them so I bought them. I paid maybe 20 bucks total and they seem brand new. One is actually a Vera Wang (no I'm no super into fashion I just know the name) and I paid $10.00!!!! Ten bucks for a Vers Wang! Score lol. But anyway. The actual dress that I'm posting today is one I found a few days ago at goodwill (see a pattern? Lol). I was about to check out when I saw a cute shirt hanging up in the section they advertise like higher fashion stuff. It looks more like a new store, with all nice clothes you'd want to wear instead of rows and rows of mumu's and faded tee shirts. I sifted through one rack of about 5 items when in the back I saw it. This dress. So cute. I knew I shouldn't but I had to. My mind was made up the second I saw it. That baby was coming with me. I'm sorry it's not a great picture. I took it this evening when everyone was asleep so I couldn't get a solid white background. Well anyway. The dress!

Ugh it looks even worse on here. Maybe I'll take a new one tomorrow and edit it in...oh wait. I mean later today haha! Anyway. I paid 15 bucks and I swear the thing is brand new. The black spots are a mesh and the back is open except for the zipper. It's kind of like a spandex material and just makes my heart melt! I know, I know. Wtf Jess haha. But anyway. It's a size medium and I know it's going to be many, many, many, many moons before I can don this dress but I will! That I can promise you I will wear this dress! (And then I'll post a photo for you guys lol)

Ok guys. I've got to actually get some sleep. 

Ms.Jess